- Me giving a very short speech at my graduation ( I had no idea we were supposed to give a speech!)
The
other day I thought I lost my journal and was scrambling all over the
place. I know it's just paper but it still cultivated personal thoughts
and my prayers, you know? Anyway I ended up finding it in one of my
purses when I came home from visiting Michael. Which brings me to some
pretty disappointing news I had received on Monday about the status of
my Avascular Necrosis. Remember how I was saying I was going to send my
x-rays to an AVN specialist? Well I did, and he responded a little
under three weeks. It turns out my necrosis is much more advanced than
formally addressed from my previous doctor, and there's a high chance
that my hip is close to collapsing; if it hasn't done so already. The
specialist told me the stem cell procedure may not be my best option and
there's only a 50% chance I could even benefit from it. The only two
other options I know of are: core decompression or a
hip replacement. But
the good news is that he requested a new set of x-rays so he can
determine the status of what's presently going on in my hips, and help
me further.
What was my initial reaction? At first my heart sank a
little when I heard the word "hip" and "at the state of collapsing."
Being only twenty years old this is not exactly an ideal situation for
me... Of course I think it's unfair, especially since I've just
graduated from culinary school and have dreams of getting married and
opening my own cafe someday! But after receiving love and support from
my family and Michael, my heart managed to ease up and I was immediately
reminded of how this whole experience is bringing me so much closer to
God. It's taught me patience, humility and to ask other people for help.
I know I'm never alone and believe that there's ways around this trial
even when I'm feeling sad. New hip or not, I will remain joyful in His
name and won't ever give up!
-Jessica
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